Growing old does suck...
But most of my life I've been busted up and achy, I've been demented from fairly early on and I don't see how I could look much worse...
I meet friends who I haven't seen in twenty or thirty years and they say "you haven't changed a bit" and I'm like "Well, you suck too, but you didn't have to be mean about it!"...
Seriously, they had cameras back then and I have pictures of younger me...
It's not pretty.
It's not a compliment fer crying out loud...
I don't care... If you go through life with no shoes, you don't miss them when you get them and they fall off...
See... There is the dementia again.
I think if I had one complaint about getting older it would be the weird ear hair...
Why the hell does nature suddenly feel the need to make my ear lobes furry?
What advantage does this serve?
Did our distant ancestors need to keep our ear lobes warm as we aged?
What animals were climbing into our ear canals that this kept out?
Did primitive human males have ear hair battles like elk butting antlers?
What the hell?
I'll admit it, I have zero self image or vanity, but I draw the line at friggin fuzzy ears.
Yes, I pull my ear hairs out and it's a constant losing battle... In fact I think it just provokes them...
But I'll keep fighting them, damn it.
And just in case you are thinking of your great grandfather's ears that looked like he stuffed two mice in them...
It's even weirder...
They are more like regular hair... Long... None of that short nonsense... If I miss one, it grows exponentially and will mimic a stray head hair... Its crazy.
I hate getting haircuts because, well frankly I look weird enough to begin with and apparently nobody knows how to cut my hair... They try interpreting my wishes, but they don't ever really get it... So I usually go a while until I get one.
Generally about the time I start looking like a hippy version of Aragon, my wife will insist I get a hair cut...
Like yesterday...
One- I forgot about it this morning and was confused when I past the mirror... (Dementia)
Two- I stopped and stared at what appeared to be me (turned out it was) and noticed this one long wavy ear hair that managed to escape detection...
I yanked it out immediately, but I was mortified...
I asked my wife and daughters if they noticed it and they all shrugged with a general "and that's what you are worried about" kinda vibe...
I know they try not to look at me too close, but they can notice anyone's hair style change instantly... Yet somehow if I grew a unicorn horn out the middle of my forehead it would go unnoticed... So I probably shouldn't be surprised...
Still... I don't like my ear mane...
I can live with my furry hobbit feet and angry eyebrows, but the ear beard, not so much.
No, I'm not focused on the stupid horrible (delightfully blindingly painful at times) back and neck pains or the fact that my vision is crap now...
No, I'm gonna focus on those damn ear hairs...
And I'm gonna win!
I don't care if I have to go full Van Gogh on them, I'm winning.
I shall overcome!
See... If you are peace with the other stuff you can focus on the stuff that matters.
And ignore your dementia.