My Nickie cat....

[quietrob]

I've twice made the decision not to adopt another cat. After Sushi, it was because of the grief. She was my heart. With Taeyn, it was because of my age. So when I adopted her, it was with the intention that she would be my last pet. But, by the time I had to euthanize Taeyn, I had changed my mind. Turns out, I need a companion to love. Tsuki has made it harder to grief for Taeyn. Not that I don't! But, she is such a delight that even when I'm sad, she makes me feel so much better ... especially as she's still doing silly kittenish things at 19 months.

Like yesterday, when she tried to jump onto the desk, missed and fell backward. Since she was right beside me, I got my hand under her as she started falling backwards. So there she was, sprawled on her back, over my hand and arm.

I'm almost ashamed to say I laughed. But, her expression was so funny, you know? Like ... oh crap. The whole world saw me being clumsy!

Even if the whole world at the time was just me.

The last line truly adds perspective. Just as we love them, they love us. We are their world.

 

[Lyne]

Losing Nickie

My grief is magnified this time and I know the reason why,
It is because life is less tolerable without my little guy,
He was there, giving comfort, during my most meaningful years,
Through divorce, finding "true" love, then it's loss with many tears.

He nourished my heart, his presence was so very dear.
And though I have many good memories that are still clear,
There is a gaping hole in my heart where he used to be,
My heart hurts missing him, my clever cuddly little Nickie.

So bright and intelligent, he could have been a movie cat,
Constantly amazing me, he was an astounding acrobat!
I will never forget when I heard an unusual noisy sound,
Turning, I saw him run up the drapes, bringing them crashing down.

No sooner had I picked them up, he dashed for the other set,
Scaling right up those with sharp claws, causing me to really fret.
Then too, his favorite thing was to tightrope walk on those rod rails,
Causing me to fear for his safety, afraid his balance would fail!

I got a tall cat tree, so he could feel adventurous and free,
Because he loved high places for all the sights he could see.
I remember him running on top of cupboards with thundering feet,
Then he'd stop, sit and stare at me, until our gazes would meet.

He always wanted to lay very close, right in my face,
Cuddling right under my chin was his special place,
He added so much to my life, I'm incredibly sad, and I cry,
I'm really angry that his health problems forced him to die.

Now the house is so quiet without his talkative meows,
While I can continue on, I am really not quite sure how,
Because he was so bright and understood me so well,
I'm afraid that my days will be tinged with a feeling of hell.

I expect to see his furry body, no matter where I turn my gaze,
Then I remember he's gone through a heart broken haze.
On his last day, he couldn't even jump up on a low chair,
So I know I did the best thing, to show my love and care.

Now I dread each day, it's hard to go downstairs,
Realizing that I can not expect him to be there.
Everything I did was connected to his comfort and care,
I'm so angry at life for doing this to us, it's just not fair!

Yes, I really miss his green eyed furry face,
No other fur baby could ever take his place!
Still we did the best we could, we had a loving 12 year run,
Now I pray he is in heaven, sleeping peacefully in the sun.
~Lyne's Creations

 

[Alisa]

Oh, Lyne,

Gorgeous image and your poem had me smiling and crying..

HUGS!

 

[Rae134]

 

[RAMWolff]

Brought tears to my eyes. Thanks for sharing your poem and that beautiful photo of your baby boy! HUGS

 

[Miss B]

I'm still wiping the tears away. A wonderful heartfelt poem, and your image showing off Nickie is wonderful as well.

 

[Lyne]

Thanks for your compliments... I'm able to also put my new Nickie 'photo' in a frame and in the lap of my mourning Morning Dove sitting among spring flowers.... so working on that now... feeling a TINY bit more cheerful as my AC is NOT down any freeon- seems my AC got confused and I panicked when it wouldn't turn off and on right for a short bit... but all's well... (I'm paranoid about AC leaks after the 2 years of trouble with an previous machine). I'm also always better emotionally when I can watch a TV show I can really get involved with... such is the case of The Outsiders...so got to go post about this one in my TV thread.

 

[mininessie]

sorry...i am ever late in the post!
i´m so sorry for your loss sweetie! big,big hugs!

 

[McGyver]

I'm sorry for your loss... I want to say more to try a cheer you up, but I'm afraid random stupidity is not a cure for sadness...
I know, this isn't much of a consolation, but I feel it true... Those that we love and who love us back, they never truly leave... Even when they are long gone, it is only from our sight... They stand beside us in the darkness and guide us where alone we could never find our way.
Sorry if that was corny... Just be well.

 

[Pendraia]

So sorry Lyne...

 

[Alisa]

Wasn't corny, McG ! Was sweet!

 

[Lyne]

Thanks again... still working through it...sigh

 

[Alisa]

 

[Miss B]

 

[Lyne]

Loss In Spring

• Lyne
• May 28, 2017
• 5
• morning dove

Mourning Dove expresses it all for me...

 

[Rae134]

Beautiful Lyne

 

[Alisa]

Lovely!