Wow, Seliah...you remind me of myself years ago...functioning on very little sleep. I know you'll get it done, you always keep your promises...but do try to squeeze in a quick power nap, okay. I did it for 30 years...full time career job that often demanded overtime, on the worship team at church which included rehearsals as well as every Sunday performances, the concert choir which had specials at least every quarter, requiring rehearsals, Wednesday night and Sunday night services, also requiring music, Thursday night and all day Saturday working with the prayer counseling team...and I still had time left over to do special projects for the pastor and his wife. It makes me tired now just thinking about it...haha. I wouldn't get home from Sunday's activities until about 1:00 or 2:00 a.m. and had to go to work the next day. I was juggling it all pretty well, until they increased my load at work in terms of training problem employees who were on the way out the door if they didn't shape up....which was totally hopeless, and made my job just awful...when people make mistakes in patient care, the consequences can be really bad for all concerned...and trying to run interference for all that finally landed me in the Emergency Room during my work shift with a blood sugar of almost 800, and blood pressure of 200/100 (and I hadn't eaten in quite a while). They wondered how on earth I was still alive. I was like the most tightly wound clock that can be imagined. I began resigning from things immediately following release from the hospital...church duties, busy social life, and finally my job. I went from being hyper-busy to silence...now I call it peace, but at the time I wondered if I would survive the deafening silence. It took six months until I wouldn't awaken suddenly from sleep, wondering if I'd overslept for work, or dreaming about something patient care related, and would awaken startled that someone had screwed up again. Gradually my health stabilized, but damage was done that doesn't repair easily at my age. So that's why I only go out once a week to run errands, with family, and decline all invitations from friends to re-join "the loop"...because I tended to be superwoman in everyone's eyes who knew me...I was their problem solver...I made it easier for them...I had bosses enjoying two week vacations because they said they knew they could "depend" on me. Ya'll know that I don't often discuss details about my health...because I don't want it to ruin the fun we have here....and trust me, I know when I've had enough, and need to rest...I have all kinds of tells and signals now....dizziness, nausea, fatigue, jittery feelings, as well as other symptoms that I won't go into here...but I know as soon as any of it starts happening, it's time to rest. I'm sharing this with you Seliah, because you're the age that I was when I was running full throttle for everyone. Make sure, for your family's sake as well as yours, that you learn to be sensitive to when you feel tired...when I was that age, it just didn't register with me....I was running on coffee and sodas, so I never felt tired...or should I say, I never allowed myself to feel tired. I am paying a heavy price for it now, stuck with an extremely bland renal diet, and unable to get out much. The only thing I can safely drink now is water with a little bit of lemon. Believe me, you don't want that...I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I should have known, better than most, that the sabbath was created for us, not us for the sabbath....but, like so many in the church, we were getting it backwards. I think it's wonderful that you've been willing to do this project for the church...and I bet you'll successfully pull it off...but think some about the future, in the future. I heard something on TV recently that made me chuckle, I couldn't help it....it went something like "there's a purpose for every life...some people serve as examples how not to do things"...and I thought, well, I had that one coming...haha.
Seliah, thanks for the tip about Nataani. I've loaded up DS with my Dusk stuff and baby Luna, so we'll see what happens. It's good for me to have new challenges like this, without pressures. I'd perish of boredom if I didn't have some hill to charge and conquer at least once in awhile.
And...I don't want you guys to worry about me. It won't change a thing, except make you miserable and ruin the fun we have while we can have it...okay.
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